Today was fucking boring. It was never expected to like this. I really wanted to fuck everyone up down there, alright kidding.
And i think im really sick now, which i cant really find a reason why too.
Everybody seems to have a girlfriend or boyfriend now. The close circle of friends around me. Or at least, even someone to aim for. And people have been telling me weird things lately. Freaking me out and fucking me upside down. okay la, not that exaggerating. Hahaa
But really I dont see a need, for a girlfriend i mean. There are still bound to be people that are always single, when i really dont have anyone to turn to, then. Wanshun always will be, Lol.
Relationships, there are bound to be more worries and stress than happiness and pleasure in it. You'll always gona compromise and be unhappy first before you can be happy. And even if you really are happy, its lasts for only some time.
The last time i got involved in such matters of the heart, im like constantly hit by stress and worries. You'll wonder why didnt she msged me today, why didnt she talk to me in MSN today, especially after a daily routine of constant talking. And furthermore, you'll think more about it and the reasons behind it, inviting constant stress and worries. Besides if that person reallys means that much to you, you'll worry over the slightest bit of things.
I've dreaded that feeling, and I've forgotten how it feels like now. Certainly, I'll not want it back unless its really worth it.
11:57 PM
