Im kinda vexed now and at the same time sad too. I mean im vexed long ago, but who can i tell it to. Nobody understands it or it hasnt got anything to do wid dem. damn. Im thinking of quitting school now and then register for a new and better course next yr wid dem which i had long thot of la. I dunwan to get stuck at this fucken course which i had no interest in, or has it gt any bright future? NO. all 5 polys in spore have IT courses. which means ten of thousands of grads. the diploma's useless then. Its gona be so common. whereas IT, what can you do? freelance programmer? Thats only the best of the best can be. where does all of us these normal graduates go to then? FUCK. I didnt study tt hard to get into IT. God damn it. People dunwan their future, i wan alrights. 17pts get into IT, wad a joke ! i saw many ppl getting the same points as me and going into courses like business management and god knows what's else. But at the same time, if i were to quit sch, im scared tt worst come to worst i couldnt get into a course next yr and im left wid nothing to study. damn it. But if i were to continue on and get to change courses next yr, den wldnt i be wasting my parent's thousands this year? GOD. im vexed. tell me what to do ?
I hope i can go all over again and do well or retain. At least I could see her again daily in serangoon sec fer another year. Its a real nightmare for me man, this year. Really, Without her blah blah. But this year's gone just like tis. I really hope i can hold on to a time when nothing mattered. You know that without you, i simply just cant do anything well in life or rather concentrate on anything else. The distractions are too harsh. Realising that you are nt tt close as it seems in the past anymore, where i can catch glimpses or find you easily in school daily. You seem so far away now. Worlds apart i should say. You may think im ridiculous and it isnt tt serious. But really, life's so hard to get by without you. you know that?
Enough of this shit. Serene is damn bad. she laughed so hard at my brother today. And she's damn irritating. She can on the com and blog,tag and wadeva else but not come online at the same time. And you can talk wid her on tagboards. Thats so irritating rights. tsktsk. I hate people who are lidat. LOL. asss. =))
I asked God. ' Do you really think she will fall for me? '
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