Im damn tired today. have such little sleep last night. heavy eyebags so have to put on my specs again. to hide em. hehh. so damn tired, so went compass awhile only. I cant take it, go home eat already den went to sleep straight. but woke up at 11pm. Just to do sth, and i cant get back to sleep now. damn.
was talking to shiyiing. she gave me lots of things to blog frm what she says. hah. two sentences and she sums up my feelings. I wont like it anywhere without her. so dunt blame poly. Everything gets so different when my life and your life doesnt intersect anymore. so damn true.
Dun try to kid me. Im nt dumb. Label me as ridiculous,paranoid, having odd-thinkings or whatever shit you can think of. I dun give a fuck. I just dunt get it, am i really wrong to think such a way or have such thinkings ? I just dont get it, i make no impact in your life after that long? And i just dont get it. . . argh, there are too many to be asked. forget bout it. dumbfuck.
I know my flaws. Perhaps i did offer a different drawing of love. a different dimension. But i guess in whatever ways you look it, i swear its still so true,sincere and heartfelt to me.
'If i do fail again,
Draw my blood
Take my life
Take my lovelorn soul
Wipe me from the face of this world.
If i do fail again in my attempts
I beseech you, God. '
'Everything gets so different when our lifes doesnt intersect anymore.'
11:35 PM
