Finally saw Eric today. After such a long time, doesnt really changed much though. Haha, we planned to have a overseas trip to either :
1)Thailand.
2)China.
3)Taiwan
4)Hong kong.
5)Malaysia.
Notice its all reasonable places to shop at realistic prices. So we are gathering people and going someday. wahaha.
Lost love is still LOVE. Its sad to see my buddy saw his girl wid another guy now. And its been a whole damn year without contact wid her, and he still feels the pain.
Guess occupying yourself wid activities and programmes all the time,esp playing soccer blindly, is just a way to temporarily force you to stop all those weird thinkings. But if the real situation comes,esp spotting scenes like this, i guess i cant handle it. I really think so.
And i really salute that guy that won over my buddy's girl. I salute him fer his immense courage to do it once again after getting ditched. And im sure he put in alot of effort and hard work. -claps- Something which i could never have done. Label me as useless or whatever. But this is the type of guy i am. And i know i have done more den usual, done what i could never have done to you already. You all know i don go after girls right. hmms, all those weird thinkings shows it all. I text all those because i lost control, i duno why. I could say i never have such weird thinkings in my life and i hate to say that, but it shows that i cared,really cared. =/
I duno why but seeing my fren feel this way, in turn sparks off the sadness in me once again. I thought i was all free from it then.
I could say its hard to get over. Real hard. Esp those late nights, sleepless nights. You all wld never know. I know wad i feel, and i dare say that no one around you is more sincere than me,yeah. But... its your choice. Im just telling myself a lie that im moving on, no matter what.
'Im heavily broken
And i dont know what to do
it seems like im choking
And i cant even move.'
'When's there nothing left to say,
What can i do?
Just shoot me and end my misery.'
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