champions league action well, are nerve wrecking. causing ppl to lose money. how can man utd play such boring football and draw scoreless wid lille? and barcelona drawing 0-0 too? den bayern munich could actually beat juventus 2-1? damn.
well just had a heated arguement wid my dad. don wana go into detail. my dad dun like my kind of lifestyle all along..since duno when. he's been saying im too obssessed wid soccer, bidding far too large amounts of cash on soccer betting, too engrossed wid wrestling which is too violent fer him, sleeping late,using e computer, the way i spent money and doesnt like me to have a girlfriend. Aiya afterall, im used to it. i dun really care bout it.
had a terrible nightmare last night. forgot wad exactly isit about. but it left me drenched wid sweat when i woke up. damn. must be sth real terrible huh ? LOL.
well,been sacrificing e computer fer my bro tis few days. for his girl actually. but its so disappointing to see him approach girls man. the girl could actually tell him 'I HATE YOU' and den blocked him in MSN. how pathetic. but wad to do, he's my brother. nt really unexpected though. LOLS
you make me feel desperate. not despo,mind you. LOL. yea, you make me feel so desperate. The things i said to you, i had never said all these before to any other girl. i didnt dared show my feelings out this way. saying such words that i had nv thought of saying before in my entire life. I hope you can throw all those words back into my mouth. I felt ridiculous n pathetic wheneva i thot of it. Just like my behaviour. we all know it changed rights? sighs. whatever you call it, sumtimes i dun even recognise my new weird self.
Really, I duno is fate playing a part in all this or whether god is making a fool out of me.
But you just left me wondering,wad's wrong wid me exactly? Left me wid two routes to go. Its either towards my pathetic chance or towards a new different life. wadeva it is, im moving on. letting nature take its course. and seriously i duno what to do after that.
Give me something to live for, something to hope. would you? =)
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