well,tonight's boring. went to town just nw wid siying,lydia,drusi,eric,junda n tze choong. Its been a long time since out wid dem..but everyone just felt kinda down.we tried to lighten up e atmosphere but it didnt last though. guess every1's either physically,mentally or generally tired. Rem e 8 aug of last yr is kinda memorable,day i met siying. etc lalala. but tis year it isnt e same anymore. perhaps im living my life in past memories i think ?
Singapore's farking boring. Im sick of my life. sick of going to e same places always n doin all e 'joys' of life. like play pool,movie,arcade,shopping,feasting,clubbing,countdowns blah blah. Im sick of going to school and studying some stupid IT course tt i dun really see my future in, im sick of even playing soccer just to get injuries at e end of e day. I dun think i will be cutting my hair,even though i said it like weeks ago,hahs. sick n tired of it,doing it nicely always jus to get messed up wheneva i sweat,argh. Im sick and tired of it ! its frustrating ! afterall i think, dere isnt a need fer me to look good alrd.
you are a total big jerk i think.does breaking girls' heart one by one around and keeping urself in favour wid almost every girl gives you a feeling of how great you are? how popular and well-liked you are,among the girls ? every girl falls fer you? It just tells me that i noe im better den you in every aspects of life. i mean every1 does. LOL
those words,i duno whether to believe it all or wad. wich is true,n wich r u feigning?
i duno if tts e right alternative.i dun tink so. afterall,i really intended to keep quiet all along. at least it makes everyone happier? i guess. but advices from every1. aiya. anyway im not being sarcastic,i really mean wad i say,you neednt do anything. afterall,i didnt ask you fer anything.
but you got to believe tt all along i didnt budge,i didnt fall fer any other girl since.i dunt lie bout such things.
Anyway,i felt like a total clown in e food court today. laughing n joking away,talking louder den usual to dhivyan,siying,agnes n e rest. when i actually saw sth that i shldnt have seen. i duno why i reacted that way. it just came out of me. it looks like im so darn happy n excited. how many others could actually done tt.LOL but i jus couldnt swallow my rice even though im hungry,i felt sour,my mouth felt so bitter n dry.
And when i went home,i felt tt wad a clown i am in front of them. a complete idiot.
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