well,actually gt lots of happy things to type today. went to k-box wid siying,eric,drusi,junda,tze choong,kellyn n dhivyan..had a great time. but saw sth jus nw, cant possibly type bout e k-box now.
wads exactly happening? i duno. its so sudden. its a living nightmare. life.
i did two stupid things jus now. i knew things wld be worst after you read it. but i duno y i did it. it just came out of me. i just cant take it anymore perhaps.
drusi said im e slowest. everyone took action and initiative much much faster den me. while im still dragging. she said i'll regret it someday when you left wid someone else. but actually im scared in fact. Im really scared.
Everyone doesnt know its so hard. when i kept it inside,didnt do anything or tell you how i felt, ppl said i did not take initiative and cant expect anything much. but when i finally did tell you how i felt, you'll start to feel awkward,scared n diff towards me. isnt t so hard. tell me wad to do den. i really duno wad to do. Please.
but i noe it really hurts. my frens have all experienced n get out of it. perhaps its really my turn now. to experienced my heartbreak. but im scared i cant take it. its been so long.
'thanx for today'. ??
But it hurts,really. i cant possibly tell others wad im grieving or doing to relieve the pain. crying nights? being down? etc. Only i myself know abt all tis nightmares i've been going thru.
But one thing,it really hurts.
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